Feeling So...

'Hey, Kid'

Yeah, that's your name. Don't take offense, it's a sign of affection. But, don't read into it: It only means I like you in a friendly way, unless indicated otherwise.

This weather is really getting me down. I hate the cold.

I don't like what's happening around me. Everybody has been giving me uneasy feelings. I don't like feeling like I don't know what's going on. And, here I am sitting out of the loop.

…I don't know what's going on!

I feel caged, almost. Probably something psychosomatic. Which makes sense, I'm not really thinking lovely thoughts at present. These feelings started today, or maybe it was yesterday. I'm still capable of happiness, but it's not the pervasive kind, it's more obtrusive.

I really feel alone.

Sure, I have Jaimie in the house and at work, and Sol in my bed, Julia always a phone call away, and the pack always at my back - but I feel so alone. Nothing lines up anymore.

Whats there to talk about anyways? My failing self control? My extreme disappointments to other people? My shortcomings? "How was work?" Who cares...

Mostly feeling... I guess thats the theme.